Well here I am 12 hours away from finding out if I have cancer. I have been trying to figure out how I feel. I think I have come to peace with the fact that the results will not be in my favor. And then I think how incredible this whole thing seems. Can this really be happening to me? Life sure likes to throw you surprises!

The question that keeps coming to my mind is "How will this change my life?"

Well, if the results are positive my life will change because my life will be in jeopardy. I will have to go through a surgery and radiation and possibly chemotherapy. i will not be able to perform my job duties as I would like and am used to. If the cancer has spread, who knows how my life might change. It is possible that I could die.

If the results are negative - will I change my lifestyle? I must admit that I act as though I will live forever. I don't eat well, I drink, I don't get enought sleep, at least I quit smoking nine years ago. But will this make me change my life if it turns out that I don't have cancer? Honestly, I can't answer that because I am not expecting good results.

But I will deal with it. And I will fight it.

This will be just another chapter in my life.



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